Appreciation

reflection on turning 22

i'm getting sentimental. i wish i could relive all the moments that i've had in my life that i told myself to remember forever. lots of them were really joyous occasions, but some of them were sad. today though, was an amazing day.

beginning last night, i experienced love and friendship. to be with folks that care about you and that you know that you can trust and turn to is a magical feeling. i'm really not sure how to describe the feeling, but i know that afterwards, i felt quite appreciative of all that i had in life.

over the past few days, i've begun to think about where my life can take me and what i want to do to leave my mark. selling out to capitalist economies and megacorporations is really tempting, and i like to think that i could make a difference in our world through this work, but honestly, i don't know if this is the case.

i think that giving back to society in its purest form may be the one true way of achieving a nirvana of fulfillment. to see your work or your person affect an individual or group in a positive way pushes me to strive for so much more than i have: an appreciation for the friendships and experiences of my life.

receiving phone calls, text messages, facebook wall revisions, friendster messages, IM's... all of love and congratulations and best wishes feels good. but more than that, to spend time making memories with the ones you love creates an appreciation that one experiences rarely in life. i, for one, am glad that i experience this daily.

i love you guys.